Yes dear! I LOVE YOU. And will continue loving you forever.
You were my first love and will last till my breaths break up the chain with the beats of my heart.
The day i accepted you in my life i took you not just as my lover…but as the one with whom i would share all my silly talks to laugh and the most painful reasons to weep.
Yeah, for sometime it went on to be the same as i presumed. After such long time of struggles, pain, weeps, depression, abuses etc…I was finally free to Smile once again!😀
Well, I have never witnessed a heaven where God lives. But have surely lived in a heaven which was blessed by God and was gifted by you.
But it has been rightly said “However the time is, it passes by.”
And this time too…passed away. But i couldn’t discern it all at once simply because…that heaven meant much…much more than anything else to me.
Slowly distances began to grow between two of us…less talks and more ignorance.
Well…each relation faces some ups and downs..it was okay. But it wasn’t okay anymore when you brought someone else between the two of us.
I still continued to love you. The only difference i could make out was that i could not express my love to you.
Well…months later you apologized and still those feelings were so strong that i couldn’t resist myself from accepting you back. Even a criminal deserves a second chance, so did you.
However a constant fear of being betrayed again prevailed each second in my mind…and a constant doubt was there. But still, somehow i managed to kill those doubts and fear.
But today you again seem to be going back on what you were…you have probably forgotten the love, the feelings and the care we had for eachother.
You forgot that when you suffered from that serious disease i never stepped back. I was always there by your side.
I feel the you’ve forgot all that since the day you started abusing me, and telling me constantly that the abuses and the physical molestation i faced being a girl, I deserve it.
Your words of “You deserve all that” constantly ring in my ears till date. And your abuses still perish my heart.
Yes, I still love you. And will continue to love you. But i also love my and I respect my self-respect. And so i leave you.
Accepting the truth that you are no more with me has made me to shift from my house to hospital. I am suffering from anxity, depression and some say a mental disorder.😔
It has been a month and you never knew…because you never bothered.☺
Well i wish someday you realize that all what you did was needless. The world lacks true love and i know that i loved you truly with all my heart…but you, you lost it dear.
Good wishes to you. I hope you find a better partner this time and be with the one taking her to be the only one in your life.
To be continued…☺